Im screwed up, messed up, muddle-headed and an idiot. Fucking stupid i am. Im a science student. I should be able to spell “aqueous” like how i spell “mom”. No! I can’t. Im typing out exam notes and I can’t spell that word right. I do the wrong things. I have no fucking idea what im doing these day. Fucking migraine, fucking heartaches, fucking piece of useless shit. What the fuck am i doing to myself?!
I tell myself to be strong, keep busy. Just keep your mind busy. And yet i screw up every small thing. Fuck me and fuck this pain.
Im doing it. Im making September happen. Im booking and im going. Im not going to be scared. Im just gonna yolo cause that what i need right now.