I crashed several times this week, crying and feeling sad suddenly when a thought pops into my head. Then, instead of numbing myself out, I decided to embrace it and let myself sink into the lapping wave of sadness. It overcame me and dragged me under and I haven't surfaced. Even now, my eyes brim …

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Only love can hurt like this

Here I am, sitting in soup spoon in PS, sipping a bowl of spicy tomato soup, looking diagonally across to the table where we once sat, memories flood back and the song playing does not help to hold back the tears waiting to spill over into my soup. This morning, was brutal. I went for …

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“They’re about to say I do. Three little letters, two little words. It’s the simplest part of the day, but there’s nothing simple about the things that will remain unsaid. I do means I do know I could be hurt, but I’m ready to be healed with you. It means I do want to try even when the fear of failure holds me back, and I do not know the future, but I’m ready to be surprised along the way. And I do means I do want your love and I do give you mine and nothing we do will ever be the same because you and I will be doing it all together.” - The Good Witch.


I am feeling horrible. I am feeling the effects of an allergic reaction to my cousin's cat and my eyes are swelled up so bad that half my eyes are gone. I look like a fat Asian flat-face which obviously makes me look crappy. I don't feel too good either, emotionally because of an anxiety …

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